Someone who has no interest in sytemizing or solving problems for the fun of it but has really only the skills to do something like that for a career? Someone with lifelong artistic compulsions but little talent? Someone whose inner desire is to cultivate strong emotions and individuality but whose functions are incapable of handling them, leading to emotional anaesthetization and thus a lack of purpose in life? Someone who wants to do nothing but revel in strong emotional states but is often incapable of sharing them in any meaningful way? An eccentric outcast whose friends were mostly NTs, without emotions deep enough to understand them?
I keep switching back and forth between INTP and INFP in my mind...I still can't figure it out and really don't want to at this point, because the reccomendations of each profile would put me on a course in life I'd be very dissatisfied with. I believe in Jung and his functions, but I think MBTI should only serve as a guide insofar as it's useful. I keep coming back to this combination though...it explains all the frustrations I've had as a person. Some will say it's impossible, and part of me thinks it is, but I'm starting to wonder. I think emotionality is seperate from T/F preferences, and I think that is what causes 4-ness, not cognative functions.
What does someone like this do as a career? What do they do to come to terms with their conflicted selves?
I'm swtiching around between majors right now...I'm good at the Humanties because I have both an emotional perspective on life but strong analytical skills. I can get into systems (like MBTI) so long as they involve people and human/emotional interests, so maybe a therapist of some kind would be a good idea? I know occupational therapist is one of the reccomended careers, but if I am a T, would that be a good idea? I'm energized working with people, despite being an I, and feel rewarded when I help them out, but still. I don't have the T problem of saying blunt things without realizing what I'm doing because I'm quite sensitive myself, but (I think) have bad interpersonal skills.
Any other rare INTP 4's here? Anyone at all have any reccomendations? Please help!