Hello everyone (:
I'm into Enneagram and MBTI for 3 years now, since I'm somehow sure that I'm an INFJ I have a hard time figuring out my enneagram. I read multiple descriptions and a book.
On Enneagram tests i usually score as 5, 9, 1, 4 or 6 sometimes.
I hope someone here is willing to help me out, I'd appreciate it.
I'm a 17 (nearly 18) year old girl if thats important maybe. I try to start with the things that people think are the most typical for me. I realy do doorslam people a lot, I usually don't dare to say what annoys or hurts me, and once I'm done, I'm done. I get hurt easily and if I think that someone is a danger or threatening to me I cut them off. I'm very empathetic, it's so "bad" that, if someone I like is involved, I feel their pain as if it was mine. If someone cries I will usually start crying too. People often take advantage of my empathy I think and I got hurt many times, so I'm shutting off quite easily now, coming across as cold and distant. I also don't stant people touching me, I think that human bodys are disguisting and I can't let someone near me. Emotional closeness scares me. Physical closeness is something I can hardly endure, except when I'm sad or something.
Altough I'm very reserved, if there are times when I really feel depressed or confused I become more open, seeking contact with others. Pushing them away because I get scared I revealed too much from myself.
Thats one aspect I guess.
Altough I'm somewhat cold and reserved and introverted Im somehow outspoken. I say what I think if I think it isn't right and goes against my values and I'm a bit tactless, maybe because of that. I'm not shy really, I prefer groups where you can have light and fun talks with everyone, I enjoy that. On the other hand I like deep conversations, but I'm somehow afraid of them. And I'm also scared away if someone is too fixated on me, I guess because of that I prefer groups.
I have trust issues.
But I'm more or less easygoing, unless I feel smothered or unless someone doesn't respect my deep held values. I have no problem with tlking to people, ignoring them for 3 weeks and then talking to them again. (But others have )
I don't really know what to add, if someone needs to know anything I will ask it.
Thanks a lot!