Hello everyone, I'm really confused about my enneatype. I believe that for INFJ's the most common types are 1's, 4's, and 9's.
I first came on believing I was a type 4, and online and offline I score 4 almost every time, when I over-think, I get 5 or 9.
If I am a 4, I believe I would be a 4w5, I do have interest in science or anything that sparks my curiosity, I search it up on the internet or ask others. I am in love in finding new information. As a 4, I connect to being sensitive and display myself through fashion primarily, I grew up liking the way my hair being done in a certain way, and certain styles appealed me a very INFP approach towards personal tastes. I primarily avoid sports if I can, but sometimes succumb to peer pressure if some makes me. However, if my friends tell me that looks weird, or if I start to feel my clothes weren't the best choice I might switch to another style (Fe to Fi clash)
If I am a 1, only the healthy apply in most cases, I have been arguing against my dad (parental orientation is disconnected from patriarchal figure). I remember a situation where I argued against my Dad, what I believed that my rationale was more toward common sense and why he didn't let me do certain things.
If I am a 9 *this might or does sounds 4ish* , I tend to blur out from people's conversation and fantasize and think about my own problems or think of a woman I am very fond of, or of a memorable experience I one time had with a person I am blurring out on. Ihate conflict, but if I am backed up on making a decision, I stick to one choice, just to end it hopefully. I do come up people directly and tell them that I am sorry, and sometimes others are hated to be reminded that I am trying to tell that I was in the wrong and they're in the right. Even if they don't forgive, at least I am content with my part if I am not too fond on the person.
I believe 4w5 is more likely than 5w4, I grew up to be a loner because I felt like nobody could connect with me and I was desperately searching for that one who could understand me. To this point in my life, it is somewhat still of a search, but I am more real with myself today, having to do to get what I want, whether career-wise, relationship-wise, or personal taste-wise. I've been told I am attractive by many of the opposite sex, and I am very shallow about meeting women, but I have no problems being friends with any of them. This has somewhat got me to thinking of being a 4w3, but I could be wrong.
When I grow up, I want to have plenty of cash to cushion myself on as I age, and I have only little interest in politics which is unfortunate, but it helps me to have less anxiety throughout my years. One thing less to worry on. (Sounds 9ish?)
I mistaken myself as a 6 is because sometimes I may submit myself to authority to get through the least trouble if I see the end result worth it, I can switch if the end isn't worth it or I've been sugarcoated about it (Does that make sense?) The parentheses thing sounds very seeking for approval too. I believe I am very self-aware and that can lead me back to a 4 as well.
I am afraid mostly of 8 types or ESP's being very upfront with me. But they don't disturb me as long as it is a once in awhile thing.
I can be extroverted for reasons of me wanting to attain more information on something, or to find an ideal partner.
Also, do instinctual variants vary for the same person for different types? If you believe on the tri-type theory, I believe enneagram believes that you are always one core type, just as MBTI but more fluid if I that is what I am understanding.
Feel free to ask any questions. After typing this down, I feel inclined to type myself as 4w5, but I have been very instinctual on that, so I'll wait a little.
Thanks so much!