I don't know if this is enough info if not let me know and i'll add more
When I was a kid I was very paranoid like legit paranoid. I was one of those kids that was absolutely scared to sleep out of fear her parents being murdered and thought if I didn’t sleep I could save them by just simply not sleeping. And sometimes I’d be scared that wouldn’t work so I’d make my mom sleep in my room. Since the killer wasn’t going to kill me so I figured if she was in my room he wouldn’t kill her either. This started around the age of 3 and lasted til I was 14. Also the other thing I was scared of was the devil possessing me. I even saw the virgin mary once standing there but I knew it was the devil so I ran the other way. I don’t really have issues with paranoia these day though I grew out of it. Looking back I don’t know why my parents never took me to therapy when I was little,
I don’t connect with people often, but when I do it’s usually for life and it’s a whole nother level then I do with most people.
I’m not exactly shy but you’re lucky if you can get more than one word responses out of me, but if I like you (which is rare) I will talk forever
I don’t trust people, like what’s their motive for talking to me
I tend to try and keep the peace
I’ve always been called strange, eccentric, or weird. I don’t know how true that is, but ok
I have a hard time giving a fuck about other people’s problems, I get bored talking about average stuff and would rather talk about things that interest me then what anyone else wants to talk about. So sometimes I’ll just talk and who evers listening can respond, or they can not it doesn’t matter. I do although get frustrated when I ask someone a question and they don’t answer and will keep asking til I get a response