This thread was originally supposed to be about 9s disintegrating to 6 but I want a wider pool of feedback so I decided to open it to everyone.
All this is completely prompted by personal issues, of course.
I feel like I disintegrate to 6 at the drop of a hat these days. Anytime anyone says something that irritates me or strikes me as a little bit off, I get extremely paranoid and wonder if they did it deliberately to get at me. I stew in all of that for a little bit and then get angrier and angrier at my perceived ill-treatment and then I start thinking of ways to pay them back or act on my frustration because then at least I'll have done something and that's good for 9s to do, right?
Except it really isn't because I don't have a good grasp on whether or not I'm overreacting, whether or not someone actually intended to hurt me, whether the inner tempering influence is actually a voice of reason or just plain old laziness talking. I think it's probably a good thing to stop living on autopilot all the time like I kind of used to do but this is ridiculous.
I thought disintegration was a limited period kind of deal but this honestly feels pretty much constant. And it's TIRING and I hate being tired and not being able to trust my instincts.
Why is this happening and how can I make it go away?