What separates a 4w3-fixer from a 3-fixer who finds the 4-aesthetic desirable?
I'm starting to question whether my 4w3-fix is valid. I feel like since the age of 13, I've been more-or-less incorporating the style and mannerisms of people I admire and sort of molded myself into those images.. Although I consider my style as of late highly personal and precise, I can't help but feel that my image or 'likeness' can be traced back to a variety of specific people or external images that I've introjected, whereas I imagine a 4-fixers' image to be much more intrinsic and mood-based. Some core-4w3s seem to do the same thing I do though. I also feel like, 3-fixers are much more relatable, showy and un-eccentric (especially core-6w7s), whereas I've always felt separate from most of my peers in some way.
As far as identifying with emotions; while I definitely feel and enjoy dramatizing my emotions, I don't think I base my identity on them. I've always based my identity on being 'ideal' in some way, and although lately I've been interested in being seen as someone with emotional depth, my "ideal self" in the past was someone much more shallow. I don't think I knew what authenticity was when I was 15-16. I think I only became interested in emotional depth after realizing that it was "better" than being a douchebag.