For a while I've settled on 5 as my head fix, given my high tolerance for solitude and penchant for "dark" subjects. But I'm wondering if I actually have a 7 fix.
- I dabble in a lot of things -- ideas, books, places, even religions -- but I don't often focus that deeply in any of them. If I sense that it's no longer bringing me closer to "The Truth", I'll move to something else. For example, I've lost count of the number of books I've started and never finished or the number of times I've started some self-improvement project, only to drop it a month later. Lord knows if I was able to actually settle and commit to something, I'd be about 50 lbs. lighter, 100x more literate, a vegan, and an HTML genius, among other things. Self-discipline, I'm embarrassed to admit, is not my strong suit.
- I identify slightly more with frustration than competence (even though i very much value intelligence). 1 and 4 are almost always in the top 3 types on every test I take.
- There have been times when i do get deeply into something and it occupies every minute of my time. I have spent hours upon hours playing video games or surfing porn and doing nothing else.
- Unfortunately, the "dabbling" also applies to people. If a friend or acquaintance is no longer bringing me to some "higher place" or to some place of depth, then I don't keep in contact with them. Which sucks, because if I felt differently, I'd probably be an awesome networker, which would help my job prospects. But I'm a junky for authenticity with people.
So what do you all think?