A man builds. A parasite asks 'Where is my share?'
A man creates. A parasite says, 'What will the neighbors think?'
A man invents. A parasite says, 'Watch out, or you might tread on the toes of God... '
well, there's a description of 9w1s I found awhile ago that I strongly, strongly identify with:
9w1s have an "ego in having no ego", as opposed to the 9w8 ego in being able to be apathetic to what's pointless. They can be unusually intuitive and cerebral as well as creative and fantastical. They have a knack for synthesizing various theories and viewpoints. Sometimes they can seem like 4s and 5s except they idealize "flow" and don't take things to the same extremes. It's tough to narrow down the possibilities and discriminate the way they see everything as interconnected. They feel ambivalent and out of touch with what their instincts tell them. They repress and ignore negative urges in themselves but get frustrated with those who disturb the peace. In response to being disturbed themselves they might initially be taken aback or dazed and then say everything is okay.
why I think I could be a 4:
I have this obsession with authenticity that seems more common to 4s
lack of intensity can make me very uneasy. (could just be because I'm on an SSRI that seems to be preventing intense emotion. also, I've heard that 9's worst fear is fragmentation and loss, and considering how emotional I was before, it could also be that I sense an incongruity between my previous self and current self and it's freaking me out.)
I dislike conflict, but I prefer confrontation over avoidance by far. if anything, it makes me feel better, because I'd rather have everything out in the open. jumpstarts a process of resolution.
I've heard 9s described as being prone to passive aggression and obsessive behavior, which doesn't fit me well.
then again, some of the 4s I know can aggravate me - I see them as overly concerned with individuality and emotional highs