heres what i posted to facebook an hr before watching The Clip
And then there's those moments when all your dreams have been whittled down to one, and you realize that you might not want to keep it after all, and that you'd like to reinvent your future experiences. You begin to dream and get excited about one or three directions. Then you realize how much work it will take, how short your attention span is, and you wonder if this dream will end up like the others, unfulfiled bc you lacked the tools to keep your momentum. That is followed up by achnowledging that doing nothing gets you no where fast. The end result is ... interesting - like walking a knife's edge where reality and possibility meet.
IF only i weren't fed up with my own inadequacies, and actually remembered/accepted that fact often enough to let other people help and support me.
I envy kids. they need only do what they are told. im enterely too opinionated to do justice as a strict yesman. I love to dream. I want...for me to be confident about the direction i want my life to be...both in the next few years, and next few decades. im great at contingency planing, but lets be honest: the daily grind of getting me there by myself, wears me out fast :/
I cant be the only one who wants to reach the end goal AND enjoy the spontanious!