I've got a PhD in theoretical physics, a teacher's degree and I'm working as a teacher for four years now. Up till now, my teacher's career consisted out of temporary jobs, substituting an ill or pregnant colleague. Up till now, I always told myself that it'll go better next year, when I'm a bit more experienced, when I'm not pregnant myself, when I'm not trying to combine the job with the teacher's course (<- the very first year)...
It never got better. There's always something I can blame, and I guess that the following years I'll have to care for my daughter, possibly for another child as well, etc etc. The last few months I've more or less neglected my husband (to care for the baby or to work for school) and that can not be right!
There are two connected problems with me as a teacher. The worst is: I can't keep order in the classroom. Each lesson (even the good ones) is such a drain on my body and mind, and sometimes I just don't find the courage to call the naughty students out. Which is problematic, as the students see this as if I'm allowing their behavior; so it gets worse still. The other is that I have to work through the weekend to prepare my lessons. I think they are connected because, normally, I should be able to work on Wednesdays and on my hours off (there are only 20 teaching hours in a full time job, and to me, it's already too much!) - but I'm so exhausted I'm not able to do anything but sit in the couch and waiting until it's time to go to bed. I don't want to do school work in the weekends! The weekends are meant to play with my baby daughter, to do long walks, maybe even to do some sports.
So, what now?
What would be a good job for an ENTP with a physics and teacher's degree?
Or should I keep going with the teaching job? I'm a bit afraid that I'd land in a worse hole, especially if I change jobs only to escape the schools - I don't have any positive motivation now. Any ideas?