The workload at my college – MY workload – is pulling me down. I’m starting to think it’s too much, and I’m only barely a full-time student, which means I only have twelve credit hours a week. What possesses professors to think – actually THINK (and they do) – that we students have the time to spend six hours per week studying and preparing for each of our classes? Are they fucking nuts? How THEY expect this, I may never know. Not all of them do, but currently I have two professors out of a total of four whom I KNOW expect this. It’s nuts. It’s balderdash.
I’m thinking of dropping my earliest class, not because it’s necessarily the most workload, not because it has the hardest teacher, not because of any particular reason other than it’s at ten am. It’s my astronomy class, and I’m fairly sure I can get a pretty good grade in there if I have the time to devote to studying, but…
All right. I’m torn. I’m TORN. I know that a payoff takes work. Or do I? Intellectually I know that hard work is much more important than talent or inborn ability. Intellectually, I know that pure intelligence can’t take the place of genuine study time.
But I have this problem at night, where I hate the idea of homework so much that, for my psyche’s benefit, I start to believe the lie that it’s not going to take me very long to do it – in short, I tend to grossly underestimate the time and effort I’m going to have to put into my homework – and I end up leaving myself very little time by the end of the night to finish it, which normally leaves me with the difficult choice of completing only part of the homework and studying I should probably be doing that night. It happens constantly - in fact, every night I’ve had homework so far. The problem is that I have a hard time compromising between my need to have fun in life and have some free time, and my need to objectively evaluate the amount of homework I have for that night so I can efficiently complete it. I'm just put off by the idea of homework so much that I put off even THINKING about it until it’s too late to complete it and get any semblance of a night’s sleep at the same time.
That said, I currently have between a 3.9 and a 4.0 GPA. I’ve been in college two semesters and have been successful so far. Maybe I’ve gotten lazy by the end. Maybe my workload really is significantly larger than it was the last two semesters. I don’t know, and am in no position to judge (seeing as I've very recently come out of a psychological rut, and, for all I know, could very well have been grinding my axe the last two semesters to get the grades I did).
Basically, it comes down to this: I’m not happy with the workload. I’m probably going to stick it out a little longer, but if I continue to be as unhappy as I am now with the workload, I think I’ll drop one of my classes, probably my earliest. Although there’s a Latin American history class with an arrogant, pretentious, priggish thirty-something Harvard graduate professor that I’d REALLY like to drop; actually, I’d like to drop-kick HIM, into Venezuela, with my logic, and I’d cap it off with a post-drop-kick hairflip (copyright Ivy). Oh, he’s one of those guys who is so damn pretentious you’re just salivating at the idea of getting into a controversial debate with him, bringing up a lot of research, and whooping his ass. He’s just a big jerk and a damn queen, not in the homosexual sense, but in the annoyingly pretentious and arrogant sense. Damn queen.
I feel like my attention is divided among too many classes and too much material to learn. I don’t want to learn things the mile-wide, inch-deep way. I’d like to learn a smaller number of concepts more in-depth, which means striking out a class and focusing on the three I have left.
But here’s the thing. I have a scholarship that covers $2000 of my yearly $12000 tuition. I don’t want to give it up, but one of the criteria for keeping it is remaining a full-time student. If I drop even ONE class, I drop below full-time level. Full-time level is twelve credit hours and above. Below that and you're part-time. Colleges are so hokey.
So that’s the dilemma. I’m basically turning this long preamble into the following concise questions: Do you have any input to share? How difficult is it for you to pay off your college loans? What are some things I should be aware of? Anything? I’m just looking for a financial perspective on the situation. Thanks for the input!