You should just get a driving job of some sort, preferably with a company vehicle. You don't want to tear up your own auto. Driving jobs are great because you're on your own most of the time and you basically have freedom to do things your way.
I've been there too....
The only advice I can give you is to start trying.
Get up and do something, whether you want to do it or not.
Decide to try and do it.
Try will eventually turn into something more.