Eating seems kind of pointless, but that may be the food options rather than loss of appetitie. Also, massive weight gain in about the past week or two. I think. I don't have a scale.
It's the change in weight that matters. Up to 40% of depression is "atypical depression" which features weight gain, and in particular a craving for carbohydrates. You seem to be having a lot of worrisome symptoms. Again, a physician or cognitive therapist will be able to help you determine whether or not you're suffering from clinical depression.
"OMG I FEEEEEEEEEL SO INTENSELY ABOUT EVERYTHING OMG OMG OMG GET ME A XANAX" -Priam (ENFP impersonation)
Stop focusing on your perceived family failures. Their lives are NOT yours. Just because your bro ended up in Walmart rather than something related to his course doesn't mean you will. People have said very encouraging, helpful things to you here yet you ignore them and refuse to budge from your utterly pessimistic standpoint. Frustrating.
And yes, there are such things as INTPs who overuse emoticons
Stop focusing on your perceived family failures. Their lives are NOT yours.
Agreed. Look at it from another standpoint, like I do. Yeah, my family hasn't done much, but I'm going to be the one who stands out from them and make it to whatever dreams I wish to pursue (once I decide on one of them). That's the beauty of being your own person, because for the most part, what other people do with their lives doesn't decide what you do with yours. You and everyone else here have that special ability to make your own decisions in life and choose how hard you want to work at something and what you've learned from it so you can better yourself in the end. Fix yourself from the inside, first, then worry about other people's problems if you need to.
Plus I'd also recommend calling a doc and hit the prozac. You never know what good it will do if you never try it.