1. I recently have had this tiny spark in the back of my mind that has been growing and growing: YOU NEED TO BE A TEACHER!
2. However, there is the obstacle of overcoming all of the programing I've received growing up around very privileged adults: "80k is practically poverty line...how would you live?" (implied) ... "to live as you did growing up you're going to have to make about 5 teachers salaries" (implied) ... "teachers just whine and complain about basically having the easiest job in the world" ...
So, obviously, it was at first easy to suppress my desire to teach with all of this prior programming.
3.Is it that I just hate my current job, or is it that I actually want to teach?:
A. I've embarked on a "desk job" recently. It literally sucks all of my zest for life right out of me. I stare at a computer screen most of the day, and am glued to a chair. Its in a pretty cushy office setting, so it's honestly a lot more cozy than what many have, but still I HATE it.
Its an 'interesting' subject that is related to what I studied in school (finance), and although I would have much to learn if I stuck with it, the day to day of the most senior people is very visible to me. I see that they too, sit in an office all day, exchange 100's of emails, and look at a computer screen, in a dead silent office.
B. So I wonder, is it just that I'm a grunt? Lots of older folks just condescendingly tell me, "everyones first jobs suck..." ..."its not supposed to be fun!". But honestly, even the SR people's jobs just look boring as **** too.
C. Perhaps it's the industry? ...maybe...but then I think how the internet has fundamentally changed EVERY job. Every job these days seems to fit into the box of either being Marketing, Sales, Finance, Advertising, Management. I think a large majority of those have been infected with computer/desk sitting as well! Of course there ARE sales jobs that dont involve a desk, but that sounds somewhat un-fulfilling .
4. I think at the end of the day, my sentiment is just that: "Success would be nice, but what I really need is fulfillment" -- ME. I have done a great deal of sports coaching work with kids, and I know that it's the happiest I ever am. When I think back to the periods when I was able to do that, I felt very little need to :
<> buy stupid stuff (dumb consumer products that I simply dont need)
<> waste time on the internet or TV, even in my off time
5. I know that growing up, I never "wanted" "stuff". I was always that kid who around christmas time, never had a wish list. If I had some clothes, some food and some money to eat with friends, I was happy. I was however constantly pushed into having "stuff" by my environment (parents, peers etc)
Still, I wonder if I could ever be happy with so little $. However, this job has pushed me closer to answering this question: who cares how much $ you make if you spend all day hating your life!? Isn't life too short to try to "save up" in order to do the job you actually want to do?
6. I just think back to the kids that I've worked with before, and I know how much I've cared about them. I don't worry about being a bad teacher, or disliking the day to day. I just worry about becoming homeless, unemployed or laid off.
Do any current teachers, friends/spouses of teachers have any comments? I am in the USA and I think that it's probably somewhat different from other countries. I also wonder if all of the government insolvency (budget cuts etc) affects my aspirations?
I would probably want to teach social studies, but I would be most qualified to teach Biology/Chemistry.
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