Does anyone else have phone anxieties.
What strategies are there to cope with this.
Okay so I've started a new job. Its actually a charity based retail store where I get to sort and sell clothes, manchester, furniture, bric a brac and such. To my dismay its casual and I have to make up the hours by ringing around various stores to get days to work.
Its not fixed like my previous employment where I was selling bbq's, heaters and hot water systems and fire places. Boss was only too happy to see me go because I lacked the initiative to sell and be what he hoped for, and so did I, charismatic, flirtatious and charming and sell. In another life yes definitely its there, when my health gets back, you know the gift of the gab and such. When I was a toddler I had this ability, I swear I could sell you the shirt off your back, how times change. The entire staff was telling me by the end of it that retail just isn't my cup of tea, go find working as a store person somewhere instead. If only I had the luxury of time, now that I am in a flat. I thought this new job would be great but here's the rub.
The first week of induction was fine and very well, I got to know friends, albeit I disliked that the social group happened to be around a table outside that was designated for the smokers area, me being the one of the few who didn't smoke, made things difficult.
The second week was fine too sort of. I got to a local store, the staff were great. And a senior trips on the floor and cuts his nose, so bad it doesn't stop bleeding for half an hour. At least I'm serving the customers and earning money for the store, making the place look tidy and admin side too. I felt relaxed here.
Then the next day I had to go to a different store that was almost an hours drive away, not happy. This store was apparently the Rolls Royce of stores, militant, precise, orderly, organized and won awards for it. I disliked this store muchly. For goodness sakes locking the till after every transaction is a bit much. Colour coding everything exactly to the letter is way out there. OMG they even had all the coat hangers in order, from regular, clip ons, to children etc and rubber bands round the price tags. It was too much, I was half thinking OMG, to have even a piece of fluff out of place might be a travesty.
Anyway everything went well until the last count where we were out by $20, and the finger was pointed at me as being the newb that I made the mistake. But here's the thing, nothing like it has happened before, which sucks on the second day after the induction.
Then I go back to the local store, with such relief. I try to do extra good works. I got a call and forgot to say the store spiel and greeting and whoever it was told the manager who told me and ever since she started picking up the phone. I told the manager your store is fun, its got a warm vibe and energy and you'll do good, you actually do as good as the other store that is bigger. And the takings were indeed very good, even the manager was surprised.
Well that was last week. This week...I got a call from two stores wanting me to work after Anzac day holiday, I had to turn down one.
There are aprox 45 stores across Perth. I can easily get to about 15 stores. I'm expecting calls like the last and nothing. During induction they said go to the stores and introduce yourself so they see me. I got into a bit of funk at the moment and didn't do it. I have been wanting to call those stores to ask if there is anything available but haven't, social anxiety I guess. I shouldn't have to be doing this all the time anyway.
At the end of the day I've started applying for other jobs. At this rate I'll start using my credit in a month, and selling my car in another month to cover my flat if I don't earn, its stressing me out.
And at a time when I have my space and freedom again, to have this kind of instability bites, but then I should be used to it, life time of it really.
I understand where my phone anxieties come from really, family business, father was territorial and only person who used the phone and I got high anxiety after, afraid to call places, while using my mobile is too expensive. I need to stop being afraid of the phone now, its ridiculous.
Venting and wanting to know how to get over phone anxieties.