I have a dilemma that has been bothering me for a good few months now and I still can't make up my mind one way or another which option I should go for.
Should I give up my belated dream to finally improve my education or should I give up the dream and get a job to improve my impoverished situation?
I mean we are talking 4 maybe 5 years before I finally reach the end of the education I want to do, which is access, followed by a degree in English Literature and language, and maybe another (although it's a toss up between religion and history). That's another 4-5 years in which my financial state is going to remain as miserable as it is now. Infact it will get worse if I do this option because I will have to live on grants which I have heard through the grapevine, are pittance.
I have 3 kids to support, no child maintance to cover those kids, so it's all on me to provide, and my situation is pretty frakken dire.
But the end result would be an avenue into the career of my choice, and much higher salary, and satisfaction within myself and hopefully within my job.
Or option 2 would be back to work now that my kids are all in full time education. I'm a fully qualified legal secretary and would only need a refresher course which would be funded in a much better way than the uni avenue.
So 1 year, and I would be making money and might finally be able to afford to put a god damn carpet down, instead of walking around on a concrete floor and shabby rugs.
No real job satisfaction, no personal satisfaction, but some financial satisfaction.
So what would you do in this given situation, which option would you choose?