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Originally Posted by Celtinfj
Actually, for myself, I thought you were dead on. Because I do have very strict guidelines about retaliation and turning the other cheek when hurt, I keep my anger in check. Naturally it's going to come out in other ways, like in dreams, so I can totally see that. Being called vindictive doesn't phase me at all, because I know that in reality it doesn't come out, but it will in other ways. Because I have such a long fuse as well, when I get angry people notice, and get quite intimidated. Even so, I have to play fair...which is totally annoying when you have the nasty words right there, ready to be said, and you just can't do it.
Argh!
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And then you just sort of go off somewhere and let it all loose on a plant or something, which makes you feel stupid because the plant isn't honestly listening nor is it the person you mean to be angry with.
So, yes I agree with that assessment for myself as well. I do check my anger, and even my enthusiasm, because I worry it might not be appropriate at the time. And of course, I have the words right there in their perfect blazing, smiting glory just
waiting to be unleashed like a lash of firey vengence. But when I say them the words come out wrong and they lose their intensity...because I'm trying not to fly off the handle at the same time I'm flying off the handle. If that makes any sense. Either way it makes me feel incredibly impotent in that situation.