[Delphyne]

Originally Posted by INTJMom

I feel like this isn't the point I was trying to make. The point is that I think I would have been a "turbulent" if I would not have been squelched by my parents for showing my feelings. I was forced to suppress.

The enneagram is not about what you would have been if you had the most understanding and loving parents, it´s about the prison you unconciously put yourself into. It´s part of the type to blame your environment.

It did not come naturally, and furthermore if I were a "supressive", as somebody suggested, then that would make me a five, which I am not.

Why? There are actually three suppressive types: 1,3, and 5.

Since I am most likely a four, I am probably firstly a turbulent deep down inside, but that ruins the whole thing because I was trying to confirm that I was a four with the information in this thread, but that did not happen.

Type Four´s passion is envy. Can you identify with that?

Though it is interesting to learn that I probably am a "turbulent" who likes to show their feelings.
This explains a lot of the faces I make, and why I like to be dramatic every so often,
and why I like to be wild and crazy at concerts.

I don´t know about Magic Poriferan´s system, but in the „normal“ enneagram the „turbulent“ is equivalent to the „reactive“ type and it´s about how you react to conflicts and problems. Everyone can be wild and crazy at concerts and dramatic, that has nothing to do with being a „reactive“ type.

I used to think I was a one, but the description reminds me too much of the SJ type, and before I had kids, I was pretty wild anyway.

Being wild doesn´t negate being a One. There are certainly INTJ Ones.

If you´re interested, you can ask yourself these two questions:
- What would happen if you wouldn´t suppress your anger anymore?
- What would happen if you wouldn´t be different from other people anymore?
Don´t answer them right away. The more you ponder over these questions, the more you are likely to tap into your subconsciousness.