[cloakofsnow]

This sounds like the way I've been my whole life, since a very young age. I often experience it as a sort of stepping out of any present moment and looking at life as if from outside of Time to see life from past, present and future all at once. From this perspective things in the world have meaning far beyond our usual assumptions of things (assumptions based on our sensate understanding of things as well as what has been ingrained from the society we live in).

From my experience, the more existentially "intelligent" a person is, the more prone s/he is towards depression. Sometimes I think it is more fortunate to be born "simple" because "simple" people are happier.