Well, I am doing a lot better now. I do have to thank CzeCze a little bit though, I was a nervous wreck and when I read that I might develop OCD It scared the living shit out of me!!! XD (thanks a lot lol) But I got a grip on myself immediately and got full control of myself. My family has been a great support to me and I cannot thank my mother enough (provably never will either). I went to the doctor and it was a less than unspectacular meting, she was in a hurry it seems(
) and our conversation was brief. She told me how I felt and what not and what had happened to me and she sent me to talk to a physiologist. Either way she asked if I wanted medication but since I got a grip on myself and don't let those fears take me over like they did (I had a 4 straight days crash curse on what panic attacks are
) I told her I would do without medication for now. The daily symptoms do piss me off though, my head sometimes feels like its getting compressed real hard and sometimes it feels numb. the back of my head feels stiff too and my ears are itchy at times. This also brings me to my next point, I asked her if I could be seen by and ear specialist to have my ears checked out. For the past 2 months my panic attacks had been happening almost exclusively on Saturday nights but I never really knew why, until I went to my Barber shop last Saturday where they were blasting music and my head felt like it was being smashed against a door and I got real anxious. It so happens that I help a friend of my DJ on Saturday nights (
) and I remember that the music made my anxiety pretty bad. It seems that people that have sensitive ears can also develop anxiety so I need to know if my ears are the reason why I am suffering. If not I guess I will just grab a bottle of tequila and call it a life.