This is a lovely label for and description of a bunch of my characteristics. There are times when I remember things I've done in the past -- foolish things, embarassing things, and I literally close my eyes and shudder, as a shiver of disgust runs through my body. I too have problems starting tasks unless I'm under great pressure, at which point it can be too late -- I wait for a perfect moment (that never comes) in a perfect order (that never exists) and so am a procrastinator that simply doesn't study even when failing is a possibility, which, if realized, invokes another wave of self-disgust that eventually helps consitute a sort of vicious circle. Self deprecation? Check, especially if under great stress due to these aforementioned factors. I haven't failed anything vital or of critical importance due to this yet, but it's certainly always a dire possibility, and I have underachieved.
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