Thats sounds like a difficult thing to deal with, even on just a day to day basis, Kiddo. I really hope you overcome it, and you really shouldn't judge yourself like that because there must be so many great things you do/can do (I'm guessing anyway because you make many great posts).
I'm very perfectionistic, but I'm generally not "maladaptive" because of it. Its only when my perfectionism mixes with my sometimes stubborn attitude about some things that it gets maladaptive. My perfectionism and idealism about school and my stubborn unwillingness to change lead to poor grades for years, including a lot of self-judgement, but recently I feel like I've woken up and found my way out of the spiraling situation. It's very relieving.
Why would INJ's be especially prone to this... is it an Ni thing?
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