[Dizzy]

Originally Posted by SPARKles

Trust me, that poor boy has read many letters from me. I love to write, and he pays close attention to them as he will often quote from them later. He is perfectly aware of my feelings, except that he was afraid that I was fickle and not solid in my feelings. That was true. I was trying to decide how I felt about him and someone from my past. I inadvertently used jealousy to try and push him to step up to the plate, but it only created more insecurity for him. He said at one point he was hurt because he felt like a pawn. Both of them were stalling at indecision central. I was just being honest, but it backfired. I want him to care about me for the right reasons, out of love and not out of fear.

We had a great week together. He makes a point to now say hello, smile warmly, and make good eye contact the moment that we both meet each day and lots of eye contact at other times (He asked me recently if I was trying to "catch his eye" because we have this deep soulful looks that communicate everything on our minds...I said no {because it was just natural to look at him}, and I asked him if he was...after a very long pause of about a minute he said, "no"). Before, when he was trying to keep his distance he wouldn't look at me. Now he is much more relaxed and has made sure that we work together on assignments pretty much every day this week instead of putting me with someone else like he used to do when he had his walls up.

Funny thing is being so in tune with each other I know he is getting closer and closer. I see his resolve melting away and his confidence building. One of my male friends who is an ESTJ suggested I say, "Do you have any idea what being near you does to me?" It's true. He does turn me into jello. If I can just keep my mouth shut I know he will come around, it's just SOOO hard for an ENFP to keep her feelings inside. I feel like I'm going to explode. I want to sing from the rooftops.

So what does that has to do with my advice ???