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Angry Ayrab · 04-09-2008, 04:38 PM

In regards to the medical school thing:

I personally started on this path to please him, but eventually found out I really love this thing. I really want to become a family practice physician specializing in psychiatry. I am so good with patients already, and it has only been my first year of realy patient interaction. I am not sure what it is, but every time the doctor that is incharge of me leaves me alone with the patient, I can get them to say things to me that they didn't offer to their physicians. I can read people so well, it scares me.

Now my only problem with medical school has been the fact that I have pushed my stress factor to the limit. I will admit, I probably did not put in as much effort as my counterparts, but to them, study and busy work comes naturally. I work great under severe terrofying deadlines and usually end up doing better than the students that study 3 weeks in advance. I am just not sure how long I can keep this emotional-stress rollercoaster running. I am 2nd in my class as of right now but I feel despised because I don't conform to the communitties mentality. These guys are so full of themselves too, so what if you are a doctor or in medical school, get over yourselves your not special. It is this air of superiority that seems to drag me down the most.

In short, the only thing I would rather do other than be a family practice physician specializing in psychiatry is teach chemistry. I plan on doing that as a fall back plan and made sure to finish all my undergraduate education classes incase I ever needed teacher certification, all i would have to do is take the exam. My undergraduate degree was biochemistry with minors in math and education.

All this stuff I have done, and I am still seen as an immature prick, that has no orientation in his life. The only time we get along is when I shut out my opinions and just start to agree with him about everything. I also realize that he loves to have his ego stroked everyonce in a while, but when i do it in my genuine enfp way, he tells me to quit being such a kiss ass. The only time when I get a hint that somewhere inside he is proud of me is when he introduces me to all his high powered friends. It seems like I am just used as a tool to increase his social status which I don't mind, anything that makes him happy is good for me. When he introduces me, he will start telling his friends about what I am doing and my grades and my job etc... If he knows these things, why can't he just come out and say them to me while we are driving alone or just watching tv.

BASICALLY, WHAT THE FUCK IS HIS PROBLEM.

If it was not for my mom, I think I would just went crazy. I remember the night I told them I was applying to medical school. We were eating dinner and she got up and pretended to have forgotten something. My dad made some snide remark about only real men could become doctors (notice the hint of sexism), not slackers. I finished eating and didn't think about it. Five minutes later, I get a text from my mom saying that she is outside, and to meet her in the car and not tell my dad. We went to our special hang out place getting my mom some coffee, and she told me:

Please look me strait in the eyes and tell me that you personally want to become a doctor for yourself and not for anyone else. I admitted it was kind of to please my dad, because she can read me like an open book, lying wasn't an option. She told me that she would rather see me drop out and enjoy my life than have me miserable forever. I told her to not worry and I would think about it. She then told me she trusted me to figure out for myself what I needed to do. Man I love her so much, she is so much wiser than my dad, and I so much nicer, and I think she is the only reason that we are accepted in the communitty as non stuck up jerks. The only issue with her is that you can tell a piece of her is constantly being hurt by my dad, but she is tough and doesn't let him get away with the shit I let him get away with. I just wish he would be more understanding of us as a whole and nurture our feeling sides.

Jennifer, you hit it right on the spot with the love everything good about him comment yet hate everything bad about him and wish it would change.

Guys, sorry to rant, but to me, this is like therapy, and I will respond to each of you personally thank you so much, I just have to go to school right now so some time later tonight.

It would be nice to have an ESTJ come in here and give us the other side of the coin. Also, I actually had to fight with him to get him to take the test, and then when he finished it, he wouldn't even read his description and called it voo doo mumbo jumbo and a waste of time bullshit. Holy crap ======>

E = 67%
S = 87%
T = 96%
J = 87%

I think we can all agree, that this man is a nut job.

04-09-2008, 04:38 PM	#7 (permalink)
Angry Ayrab Senior Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Type: ENFP Location: tucson Posts: 619	In regards to the medical school thing: I personally started on this path to please him, but eventually found out I really love this thing. I really want to become a family practice physician specializing in psychiatry. I am so good with patients already, and it has only been my first year of realy patient interaction. I am not sure what it is, but every time the doctor that is incharge of me leaves me alone with the patient, I can get them to say things to me that they didn't offer to their physicians. I can read people so well, it scares me. Now my only problem with medical school has been the fact that I have pushed my stress factor to the limit. I will admit, I probably did not put in as much effort as my counterparts, but to them, study and busy work comes naturally. I work great under severe terrofying deadlines and usually end up doing better than the students that study 3 weeks in advance. I am just not sure how long I can keep this emotional-stress rollercoaster running. I am 2nd in my class as of right now but I feel despised because I don't conform to the communitties mentality. These guys are so full of themselves too, so what if you are a doctor or in medical school, get over yourselves your not special. It is this air of superiority that seems to drag me down the most. In short, the only thing I would rather do other than be a family practice physician specializing in psychiatry is teach chemistry. I plan on doing that as a fall back plan and made sure to finish all my undergraduate education classes incase I ever needed teacher certification, all i would have to do is take the exam. My undergraduate degree was biochemistry with minors in math and education. All this stuff I have done, and I am still seen as an immature prick, that has no orientation in his life. The only time we get along is when I shut out my opinions and just start to agree with him about everything. I also realize that he loves to have his ego stroked everyonce in a while, but when i do it in my genuine enfp way, he tells me to quit being such a kiss ass. The only time when I get a hint that somewhere inside he is proud of me is when he introduces me to all his high powered friends. It seems like I am just used as a tool to increase his social status which I don't mind, anything that makes him happy is good for me. When he introduces me, he will start telling his friends about what I am doing and my grades and my job etc... If he knows these things, why can't he just come out and say them to me while we are driving alone or just watching tv. BASICALLY, WHAT THE FUCK IS HIS PROBLEM. If it was not for my mom, I think I would just went crazy. I remember the night I told them I was applying to medical school. We were eating dinner and she got up and pretended to have forgotten something. My dad made some snide remark about only real men could become doctors (notice the hint of sexism), not slackers. I finished eating and didn't think about it. Five minutes later, I get a text from my mom saying that she is outside, and to meet her in the car and not tell my dad. We went to our special hang out place getting my mom some coffee, and she told me: Please look me strait in the eyes and tell me that you personally want to become a doctor for yourself and not for anyone else. I admitted it was kind of to please my dad, because she can read me like an open book, lying wasn't an option. She told me that she would rather see me drop out and enjoy my life than have me miserable forever. I told her to not worry and I would think about it. She then told me she trusted me to figure out for myself what I needed to do. Man I love her so much, she is so much wiser than my dad, and I so much nicer, and I think she is the only reason that we are accepted in the communitty as non stuck up jerks. The only issue with her is that you can tell a piece of her is constantly being hurt by my dad, but she is tough and doesn't let him get away with the shit I let him get away with. I just wish he would be more understanding of us as a whole and nurture our feeling sides. Jennifer, you hit it right on the spot with the love everything good about him comment yet hate everything bad about him and wish it would change. Guys, sorry to rant, but to me, this is like therapy, and I will respond to each of you personally thank you so much, I just have to go to school right now so some time later tonight. It would be nice to have an ESTJ come in here and give us the other side of the coin. Also, I actually had to fight with him to get him to take the test, and then when he finished it, he wouldn't even read his description and called it voo doo mumbo jumbo and a waste of time bullshit. Holy crap ======> E = 67% S = 87% T = 96% J = 87% I think we can all agree, that this man is a nut job.