This will be hard to explain: I'm rarely outwardly emotional with people I'm not seriously close to. I say the words indicating emotion but don't display indicative behaviors to go with them. (I looove emoticons because they help me out there) Yes, I laugh when something is funny. I cry only around my hubby and, then, not often. Anger, well, if at all these days (older) it takes something enormous, truly enormous, to go there. My exuberance.. like when its the last minute and my team might win... is mild compared to many but its there. I've seen movies that touched me to the point of a tear or two but, in all, hubby cries more during those. Mine just aren't close to the surface as its been a habit to, not surpress in an unhealthy way, but push them down far enough to think in a way that is usual for me. Getting far enough into emotion to display it hinders that process. I do display them more... think I said... as I've aged but they're still somewhat uncomfortable from so many years of not doing so. None of this is to say I don't care.. as we're so often accused of... my caring is just more mental. I mean it when I say, "I'm sorry you're hurt" for instance. "Sorry" doesn't have to be a display of emotion.
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