[Ender]

Absolutely horrid at times.

I rarely talk about my feelings/emotions, don't really know all that many people who could even begin to understand what they're like for me.

My feelings are what rule me for the most part, but I am highly logical so I do know when to go off my feelings and when to reel them back based on the situation at hand. There is certain lines that when crossed that logic goes out the window.

On the outside I come off as calm, even cold and emotionless to people IRL. Theres a few people I know that have never seen me angry in all the years they've known me, and have even said that because of it they'd hate to see what would happen if I did become angry. My Grandfather is one of those people.

On the inside tho..

I can bounce in and out of moods that people would perceive as depression in an instant. Based purely on a thought, or something that someone has or hasn't said.

Dealing with others in a one on one situation that deals with emotional content can be like being stuck on a rack and pulled both ways. A battle between not wanting to be hurt and at the same time not wanting to hurt the other person since that type of pain is very real to me.

Absolutely everything can be effected; sleep since I can be either exhausted or so on edge that I either just can't wake up or can't fall asleep, concentration varies I'm either hyper focused on something or I just can't wrap my mind around it at all since it's off somewhere else, appetite since theres times when I just can't eat even if I'm starving, energy levels I can either have seemingly limitless amounts or absolutely none at all.

Emotions can have a physical feel to them, sadness leaves me feeling empty yet at the same time like something is compressing the insides of my chest.