[FallsPioneer]

I had an existential meltdown in a topic (the only topic) I made recently.

I don't have a problem with displaying emotions, but normally I don't do it because I know it's not my strong suit, if I'm being outwardly emotional as a way of resolving something.

I have had fits of melodrama, usually because I started overthink things and take the wrong problems too seriously. If it were something important, I know I could handle it properly. As an example, my indirectly spurning a friend has landed me in a tight spot with that friend, and the thought that this person is probably hurt is unsettling. Fair enough problem. The worst comes when I think about it too much. Nothing kills anything like overanalysis.

I've also had a problem with holding myself accountable for others' feelings if they involved me, and that's led me to some of my worst fits. I just had that problem a couple days ago...and I'm STILL trying to become a better person.

I do reserve some of my drama internally, mostly because I have to try and figure out what's really important first before I speak about it. Sometimes it's too internalized, sometimes not enough.

I also don't like bees, even the black carpenter ones that don't sting. I hate flying insects in general. A couple of days ago I saw a carpenter bee and I just stared for a bit, probably all wide-eyed and stupid.