To a degree I think I've gotten pretty good at controlling my shadow side when I'm stressed, at least as far as when dealing with others is concerned.
My brother is one of those people that I can barely tolerate after I get home from work and he comes over to visit. It can take a lot of mental power to stop my self from telling him to screw off and leave me alone and for the most part I succeed. When I was younger it was a different story, fist fights between us were not uncommon. These days I just grind my teeth and answer him somewhat calmly hoping he'll go away soon.
My father is probably the main one I have issues dealing with. Him and my mom split when I was 4, growing up I rarely saw him beyond special dates such as birthdays or Christmas. Most of my childhood memories were of him taking us to his place for the weekend, then usually bringing us back that day or the next saying we were "uncontrollable brats." Now that I'm older and I actually work for him, I can generally get along with him, that is until he gets on my nerves in which case I usually snap before I get a chance to hold back. He's always been very critical on the choices I've made during my life, so I generally don't have much tolerance for any crap from him.. I'm workin on it tho.
With the rest of the world I generally just shut down and don't say or do anything.
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Fe/ Fi 36.9/ 37.7
Ne/Ni 34.9/25.8
Se/Si 25.7/19.5
Te/ Ti 28.4/ 31.9
Type: 2w% sx/sp/so
I don't want it, I just need it, to breathe, to feel, to know I'm alive.
Never take life to seriously.. No one gets out alive in the end anyway.
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